So now that school is out I should have no choice but to be able to blog more regularly....So here goes me trying...Today has just been one of those days. My military girls out there you know where I am coming from. Bo has been gone almost 5 months now and I have been really proud of myself for keeping it together so well. Please dont take my keeping it together as me not missing him because I do very much, but I try and pride myself when I can talk to him on the phone and think about him and not get emotional and sad. I like to think he wouldnt want to see me sad and the kids to see me like that so I try and not act like that. However, today has just been one of those days when I just cant help but be sad that he is not here right now. I am not complaining because I understand and fully support his job and the sacrifices he makes but it does make me sad that he is missing so much of Karsen and Mason's life this year while he is away.
I think what really made me think about it was when I was making the boys' Father's Day presents for him. I made each a little book that says "My daddy and me" and has 8 pages and each have a pic of the Karsen and daddy and Mason's has him and daddy. Since I am on the kick, I will just go ahead and tell what the whole book says because I think it was oh so sweet and I am proud of myself for making it...The first page says "My daddy and me are the best of friends," 2nd pg, "we love to wrestle and play around," 3rd pg, "my daddy teaches me many things," 4th pg, "one day I want to be just like him," 5th pg, "he isn't always around, sometimes he has to go away," 6th pg, "but when he is gone, a piece of him is always near," 7th pg, "my daddy is my hero, the one I look up to," 8th pg, "Happy Father's Day Daddy! I love you!
Now that I have explained the whole book lol, you can probably see why this made me tear up, I see the pics (especially of Mason-I guess cause babies change so fast) with Bo and the kids before he left and I just think about all that Mason has done since--sitting up GOOD, crawling, cruising, getting his 4 teeth, pulling himself up, saying mama and dada, clapping his hands...but that is why I take lots of pics and always tell Bo when these things happen so that atleast he knows even though he cant always see. Karsen is getting so big too with him talking so well and now potty-training(Ill blog about that later) so I really hope that Bo likes his father's day gifts from the boys. I also made handprints with their hands and am going to make cards that open up to the width of their arms that says, "I love you this much."
Anyways, back to my orginal point to this blog and how everyone has their days during deployments when it gets to you I was having one today. But you know talking about it makes it feel so much better. Honestly, something that makes me feel better(as silly as it sounds) is looking at my tattoo about Bo. I dont know why, maybe the meaning behind it and what it means to me but it comforts me. I ll attach a pic for those of you who havent seen it yet. Anyways, that is all for now...Have a good night!
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Life as an MP's Wife
With Memorial Day being tomorrow I thought that I should do a blog about Memorial Day and give a much deserved thank-you to all of those who have served our country and fallen for it. I don't think that before I married into the Army that I thought all that much about Memorial Day. I guess because I was young and it didn't personally effect me I just thought of it as any other holiday and also it was when all the pools opened up. However, now that I am married and my husband serves in our military I have found that I have a more understanding and gratitude for the day. 
Even though, my endless thanks will never do justice to the sacrifice that so many fallen soldiers gave for our country, it is a start to doing what Memorial Day is supposed to do, give memory to those who have lost their lives for our country. Tomorrow, after I attend a birthday party for my friend Lindsey's little boy, Carter, I am going to go the memorial wall outside of the Pratt Museum and pay my respects to those who have died serving their country. If you are interested, there is a song on my play list called, "Thank You" and it is a great patriotic song expressing thanks to those who serve and have fallen for us. In closing, I just want to say thank you so much for those who have gave the ultimate sacrifice and you are not forgotten but forever in our hearts.
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